Christmas Time!

We went and saw Santa and played the afternoon away. I love these sweet boys!

Hi ho, hi ho, it's back to work I go!

I have this last week home before I head back to work. My instinct wants to be with Chapman 24/7 but my pocket book needs the money. I plan on doing all that I can in this last week to relish being a full time mom only. I haven't had down time as taking care of an infant and two big boys is not for the weak. So I plan to finish the Christmas shopping, plan my meals or returning to work, make sure I have the appropriate clothing to wear to work. Having to go back is hard and there is nothing to comfort me about it. I just have to survive it.

And now to Thanksgiving

Well time flies. Chapman is 5 weeks old and next week is Thanksgiving. I am so glad that I don't have to be back at work the week after Thanksgiving. 6 weeks doesn't seem long enough and I am fairly sure that 9 weeks won't feel any better. My heart won't be with me at work but I have to work... I wish we could afford me to stay home and just be immersed in my children's lives. No point in thinking that way as it just wasn't meant to be. I am lucky to be a mom and to have such great kids. Here are some photos of us.

18 days until we meet Chapman!

I cannot believe the time in closing in on meeting our third son Chapman Mills Morrison. I dreamed of this baby for years before we finally got pregnant and now I am just a few weeks away from finally getting to hold him! My leave is set and my c-section date is scheduled for 10.11.12... Gotta love that date! I am planning to go back to work the second week in December giving me a solid 2 months to bond with Chapman and heal from the c-section. I really hope I can swing into things as a mother of 3 who works full time. There will always be a part of me dreaming of the alternative life where I stay home and just be a mom and wife. I think my house would be cleaner and maybe I would be a little less stressed... maybe. I don't know. My life is the working mom and while my job is certainly not a dream career where I make loads of money, I simply cannot financially afford to NOT work. So there you go. I do what I must because my family does come first. I am just hoping that I am able to find a new normal with my three sons and no one suffers for adding to our family. The funny thing is I feel I have just gotten accustomed to the whole 2 boys in school routine... you know homework, bathtime, bedtime, wake up and get out the door time. My boys are thriving in school and I could not be prouder. Both are taking karate and loving it. Cullen is thinking BoyScouts but Matt and I am not really sure about that one. We don't have the time to volunteer w/ it and I am not ok with him going and us NOT being involved. My thought is the only way to protect my boys from predators is to be 100% involved in all their activities... For us that means if we ourselves aren't present one of our parents will be. Anyway. Life is FULL and there is so much more to come! I am so happy to be alive and living this life. I feel blessed to have my dreams of being a mommy fulfilled. Will we have more kids every? I don't think so. I feel that desire is being met with Chapman and while we didn't get our little girl maybe that is just God's way of telling us that we were simply meant for a house of wonderful boys. Blessed and thankful. That would be me!

We did it again!

And I'm Back!

I million and 5 things have happened since my last post. Cullen is in K5 at Meadow View and doing a great job while Bennett is finishing up his last year in pre-school. Both boys are smart and sweet and the apple of my eyes. I am still working at Blue Cross Blue Shield of Alabama and being a mom AND breeding AKC Shih Tzus on a hobby level. Matt is working from home currently and together we are able to take care of our sons and our puppies. :) My days are long and wonderful and I am working for my family so it is worth it. We just love each other so much and I feel so blessed to have this great family unit!

I don't know what our future holds and I am ok with that. I just want to enjoy the now and make sure my babies have a wonderful childhood. So far so good! I am still running (crazy old Taylor) and hope to really get a grasp of a healthy lifestyle this year. I am enjoying my breeding and have 2 litters of the most beautiful puppies currently. My two females had 5 puppies each only 4 days apart. So it is puppies everywhere at our home currently. I will try harder to keep my life updated though it seems so hard at time to FIND the time.