May Days

It has threatened to storm all weekend here. The clouds are swirling in the sky with strong winds and just a heavy weight pressing down on us with all that pint up moisture waiting to rain down. Makes me feel restless. Bennett is sleeping in this morning probably because the sun is not shining into his bedroom like normal. Cullen is playing with his train set and an airplane. Me? I am just sitting here and contemplating the Gulf and how helpless I feel to help the situation in any way. It blows my mind that in the world of high technology something like this is happening. It  seems there is no way to contain or stop the spilling of oil. The entire Gulf is in danger of losing whole eco-systems as well as economy. Can I say that we did not need this to happen right now? We did not. The news this morning spoke of the oil being taken with the Gulf Stream and hitting the tip of Florida and going beyond into the Atlantic. Do you think this will spur the movement on to get this thing contained? The government is listening to the oil company for how to handle the situation but that seems kind of backwards to me. Should we not have set some sort of guidance on what is acceptable in our territory? Ugg is all I have to say because again I feel overwhelmed by it all and am afraid I am going to lose my favorite place in the world to go.

Got to start getting ready for church with the boys and Matt. Church and then lunch with my parents and then Matt is taking the boys to Spain Park for some sort of thing with his parents. While they play I will lay an attack on our home to get it cleaned up and hopefully Matt can maintain it a bit better so that I am not running around all stressed out next weekend getting ready for our guests to Cullen's birthday party. He is turning 4 years old!!! Bennett is right behind him turning 3 years old in August. On a side note I started the bc pill this morning. Bottom line is I would freak out if I really got pregnant while Matt was still out of work. I hate this entire situation though. Just to be clear I am not a fan of a stay at home man. My house stays in a disaster mode because it is all he can do to maintain the mess and never to clean it. The sink is the refuge for his dirty dishes and the dishwasher remains loaded with clean dishes until I unload and reload it. Days, months, and almost a year of this now. Life is long and being miserable makes it seem like the time is standing still and that positive change will not happen.

Well I need to go to church and get some God. Maybe soak in more faith and strength from the one who created me.